ANDREA

It took a lot out of me to tell you no the other day.

You know I could never say no to you. But I had to the other day. Otherwise, you would’ve broken my heart even more than you already have, if that is even possible. It hurts that you only want me around when you are bored, or for other reasons, but don’t love me enough to want me around to have a relationship anymore. That kinda says a lot about you as a person I guess, and also about how you really feel (felt) about me.

I truly thought I knew you better. And I thought we would be able to stay friends. But now I am not so sure. It seems more and more like you are purposely trying to hurt me more than you already have. And my heart cannot take much more pain caused by you.

I love you. I was always true to you. I gave you everything I had. I wish you had done the same for me.

So even though I desperately want to be in your presence, to lay my head on your chest and hear your heartbeat, to feel safe in your arms again…to feel at home….I knew giving into you would break me, again.

So, I had to say no.

Kelly Clarkson - The War is Over

I watch the days rush by me like a river
I shouldn’t wait, but I’m scared to touch the water
I let the phone ring, why won’t you believe me
I wait for silence, takes a lot not to answer

All I have to say is
You don’t deserve me, you don’t deserve me
I’m finally walking away
Cause you don’t deserve me, and you’re not worthy

[Chorus]
And I won’t let you pull me in
Because I know you’re gonna win
(The war is over) but the war is over (The war is over)
And I won’t fight you anymore
I never been so sure
(The war is over) cause the war is over

I used to let you paint a pretty picture
You got me caught up with your, you’re my girl forever
So I forgive you, it felt good when you hold me
Yeah you owned me
Now you wish you had really known me

All I have to say is you don’t deserve me, you don’t deserve me
I’m finally walking away, cause you only hurt me
And you’re not worthy

[Chorus]
And I won’t let you pull me in
Because I know you’re gonna win
(The war is over) but the war is over (The war is over)

truths.

You told me I am the only girl you’ve ever loved.

You told me that I am the girl you will love for the rest of your life.

You told me I am the only one who knows the real you.

You told me that you will always regret leaving me.

You told me that I deserve better than you.

You said that you knew it was hard for me to put up with you.

You sometimes apologized when you hurt me, and even when you didn’t, I always forgave you.

You told me you were afraid to lose me, and that was why you held on so tight.

You told me I was the best girlfriend, and was way too good to you, and too good for you.

You told me you would always be there when I needed you.

You told me you knew we would be together forever and always.

You are the love of my life. I have never felt this way about another human being I have ever met. I compromised and sacrificed as much as I could so that we could stay together. I gave and gave when you didn’t always give back. I was always hoping that our relationship would get easier, that it wouldn’t always have to be so much work. I hoped that your words were true and that you would follow through with the promises you made to me.

You know that you will never find a girl as amazing as me, who is willing to do all the things for you that I was. You will never find a girl who will love you as much as I do. And I know that you know that.

You cannot deny the connection we had is one that comes along once in a lifetime. And it is sad to know that you want to let all of that go. You broke my heart, and it will never heal.

I will never forget you. I will always miss you. I will always love you.

I hope when you look at your moon tattoo, my 34 birthday present from you to me, or look at the moon in the sky, you will always remember that you told me that I was your light in the darkness, that I was your Moon. That I saved you. That you couldn’t live without me.

I hope you will always love me and always remember me.

Forever & Always.